colorme_glitter

colorme_glitter @ 2007-10-16T17:11:00

2007-10-16T21:11:43Z

CRISIS

colorme_glitter @ 2007-09-15T20:37:00

2007-09-16T00:38:24Z

colorme_glitter @ 2007-09-12T21:18:00

2007-09-13T01:22:08Z

I met Sage's owner yesterday.
She was watching me ride. Sage was antsy, and her trot was so fast that I bounced a bit. ugh.
Her canter was okay, but the first time I was on the wrong lead.
EMBARASSING!
We jumped, she knocked one over. We did a lot of circle work and switching leads.
Ugh.
Catherine just sat there...watching me.
After I rode I asked her about biology (she's in vet school), so maybe that will make me okay.

School is SHJKSHJKNREKS.
I hate it when I'm nice to people and invite them places, and then they exclude me. Bitches.
Most of my friends are too busy to hang out with me :/
I'm growing away from my best friends.

WAH WAH WAH.

I am just in a down phase :) it'll be better later.

Friday I am lunching with MK, and then working with Maria on our Latin projecto.

I might see Will sunday. He's been really bitchy. Whines and wants to hang out with me and then, "OHGOSHBUSY."

My friends are lame.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-08-24T22:02:00

2007-08-25T02:03:40Z

So I am not trying in school.
I have A's (B in Math) in my classes. I make some B's on tests and quizzes though.
I am so stressed right now,
I HAVE TO START TRYING.

Ugh.

David makes me feel so fucking stupid.
He whines about not getting 100's. :/

I am retarded.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-06-20T07:20:00

2007-06-20T11:26:51Z

I am not insecure about my looks. I know I'm at best cute, but I'd really like to be beautiful.

One pound away from my goal.
If I can't be beautiful, then my body has to be in great shape.

facebook honesty boxes only lead to speculation

2007-06-16T00:42:41Z

"I think you're so cute but start being original."

colorme_glitter @ 2007-05-20T09:59:00

2007-05-20T14:01:19Z

I'm about to kill myself.
I have exams til thursday oh god oh god oh god.

I'll be at the library until it closes bringing a sandwhich and a drink.
Oh jesus :/
I'm studying three subjects.
Latin Science and Religion.

I'm about to have a nervous breakdown

colorme_glitter @ 2007-05-16T19:30:00

2007-05-16T23:31:33Z

me and libby.
it's a bad angle for me, makes me look chubby but ah oh well.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-05-13T13:43:00

2007-05-13T17:45:06Z

How many calories should I be taking in?
Am I normal looking?
Should I throw away my scale?
Here's from food for all of your thoughts.

male chicks (from laying hens) killed per year by suffocation, gas, or grinding in the US: 200million
males chicks used per day for fertilizer, chicken food, and pet food in China: 40,000

US Chickens

broiler chickens that have trouble walking: 90%
chickens still alive at the scald tank: 20%
number of chickens slaughtered, 1969 to 1992: 200% increase

Related Human Issues

estimated US health care costs per year related to excessiver meat consumption: $60-120 billion
children dying of starvation or malnutrition per day, worldwide: more than 33,000
portion of US grain crop fed to animals destined for slaughter: 70%

colorme_glitter @ 2007-05-12T09:22:00

2007-05-12T13:24:34Z

I'm going to just stop staying in touch with everyone...you know? Just fuck it. I never get to see anyone and they probably don't think of me as their close friend anymore, and my mom won't let me go anywhere.
So fuck it.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-04-04T15:19:00

2007-04-04T19:19:50Z

fuck im whiney

colorme_glitter @ 2007-04-01T16:17:00

2007-04-01T20:20:15Z

I'm dizzy, but I feel thin, best feeling in the world.
I finishes The Count of Monte Cristo (unabridged) it...is amazing.
It makes me oh so sad too. Edmond does not get back together with Mercedes, their love has evaporated. Other stuff happens that makes me equally sad but elixerated...and then happy.

Kathryn is back in the house.
I don't really care, until she talks.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-27T06:42:00

2007-03-27T10:42:39Z

well she's going to prom.
and can't choose between ssempa or win.

is it reasonable for me to feel put out?

I'm ridiculous.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-25T12:13:00

2007-03-25T16:13:18Z

what if you had a secret

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-20T18:57:00

2007-03-20T22:58:33Z

I feel like quitting soccer...I really hate it.
I haven't gone to practice at ALL this entire week. I have to go thursday and friday though...wait I have therapy. Bitch pleaaase.

I'm all bland and blah (plus sweaty).
It's like this eating disorder shit is sapping me, but I feel really good. No depression or anything as of late.
There's a dance Saturday!!! I'm super excited. :) I invited Katie yay.

Err...yeah.
Peoplezzz, call me sometime? Maybe I can go out next weekend (not this but the following)

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-16T18:44:00

2007-03-16T22:45:02Z

if you don't want to hang out with me or like me, just stop fucking leading me on.
thank you very much.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-14T18:11:00

2007-03-14T22:14:53Z

Mom doesn't want me to buy
one flew over the cuckoo's nest
Weird huh? Restricting my books...whatever. Horses are good :) some bucking but lately they've been coming along. Yay.
I'm thoroughly satisfied with how I look (finally?). Yay.

made a new journal for my stupid ED shit.

2007-03-13T02:16:54Z

After that depressing subject line

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-11T10:51:00

2007-03-11T14:52:38Z

Libby and I are going to have a burn picture.
I found negatives of my father, I'm burning journals, and all the stuff he bought me.
It'll be so relieving.

I guess I realize it wasn't my fault. It was his fault. But I still have to deal with it, but it wasn't my fault. He shouldn't have done that shit in the first place.

Nevermind this. Making people feel disgusted is not necessary.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-08T19:50:00

2007-03-09T00:50:29Z

So coooold here.

I'm 119 now ):
EWWWW.

scratch that, I'm 118 still ew though

colorme_glitter @ 2007-03-05T15:35:00

2007-03-05T20:37:49Z

scary mexican grass cutting man kept making signs at me when mom and I were in the car line for the bank

english exam was hard, but I completed it all

blech. I've been purging, but it doesn't bother me anymore, except for my throat hurts like fuck...I'm gonna talk to my therapist about it.

hohum. I'm feelin good today :3

So. I was thinking about my Mumsy today.
And she told someone, "Yeah Margaret was always into boy things" and frowned at me. 3rd-5th grade I wanted to be a boy. 4th grade I didn't want a bra, I wanted to be a boy so I wore everything baggy.
From wanting to be a boy, to being girly-boyish. Hrm.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-02-22T11:22:00

2007-02-22T16:23:15Z

Emory was fun.
Mom and I are sorta getting along.
:)

colorme_glitter @ 2007-02-11T17:18:00

2007-02-11T22:20:50Z

Libby and I spent a long time talking.
About all manner of things chemical imbalances, food, sports, competition, self esteem, jobs, and nightmares.
Apparently there's a secret she hasn't told me, but she will show me a picture that pretty much explains it all. I am itching with curiosity.

I've spent all of today reading in a tree, sleeping, eating, and helping mother with taxes.

Low self esteem is ridiculous and I need to get rid of it pronto.
Especially the weight thing.

I'm drawing a map of fairyland. Pretty much it's where all of my pretend games take place. Like in study hall, class, church, and with all my friends and children. I'm such a silly girl. Really.

colorme_glitter @ 2007-02-04T14:43:00

2007-02-04T19:44:36Z

mon ami
si loin,
J't'entends pas!
Dis-Moi ou t'es
mon amour,
cher bebe
je vais t'avaler
et
ne disent
Mon amour
Tu t'effaces

:3 my attempt at a French poem

colorme_glitter @ 2007-01-15T12:38:00

2007-01-15T17:38:21Z

Private journal. So comment to be added yo.